The Green Eyed Monster

So, I'm trying to make this a semi regular occurance, typing my thoughts and feelings regarding mine and others art.  It's been helping me focus on projects and actually completing them.  The ramblings will continue!

I suffer, like a lot of artists I suppose do, from the green eyed monster.  "I wish I was as good as X", "How does Y do it?!" "I can do SO much better then N, why do they get all the praise?", and it tends to affect my work... in that I don't do it.  Why bother?  Someone else (Probably Y, that witch lol) will do a better job of it then I will, so just forget it, use that time and waste it stupidly (by playing games that just give you more ideas on what to draw, just so you can give up on them later on).

I hate this.  It plagues me every time I pick up a pencil.  Every stroke could be, for me, the one that utterly ruins the picture, so I crumple it up, toss it at the wall, and stomp off.  Even though the rest of it was great, it's now *drama couch* the worst, possible, thing EVAH!

This is why I'm doing these journals, and just generally being more productive on deviantart.  I get this off my chest, and then I can get back to work.  

I dunno, I guess thats it for now.  I'm doing my best at being more social, which I suck at.  So, yeah....